:How obvious is it now that I'm really stretching to force my 'june days of make'? :)
The month was fun, challenging me to get more things done than I ever thought I would. Is it only me or is your wish list of things to-do always longer than the energy you have to do it? Or, more realistically, that your list of must-do always trumps the funner want to-do? :] I still have more projects and tasks to complete this summer but with vacation out of the way I hope to settle soon into a better rhythm for the rest of this break from school.
Included in that are major decisions like research for new curriculum for the school year, figuring out if I want to be a writer or photographer or comedian (with not a single vote from my family for the last one, I may just have narrowed it down), and always growing and learning in my eternal desire to rock motherhood. Part of the frustration in each is not knowing the path that I am to follow, when desire and calling and responsibility duke it out in the mental arena with doubt and certainty, guilt and reward hanging in the balance.
I'm learning how to be me, to do me. Always checking my motives, seeking my Creator for His guidance, wrestling with comparison fatigue and first world comfort guilt. I've a long way to go to get to where I want to be: free from insecurity and full of boldness and joy.
But this month I'm one step closer by having picked a new ice blue cruiser bike that is all me, eager now to spin my wheels always ever onward in the right direction!
