But what would I have done? What would I have created if not this family, these children?
Besides the overwhelming desire to be a mother, I had other interests, other probable pursuits. Some academic, others creative. Some ambitious, others philanthropic.
But I am mother, full-time, full-tilt, the responsibilities I have chosen to take on here with them contributing the majority of what I now do.
And for all that I had ever dreamed of doing, never in my wildest, far-fangled fantasies could I have imagined the joys and inspiration these four children would bring. As Elizabeth Barrett Browning says,
"God's gifts put man's best dreams to shame."
My children do not dwarf my desires - they bring the best and the brightest forth.
My children do not steal my time - they shed light on how to invest it best.
My children do not quench my creativity - they stir and provoke it to a rumbling stew of inspiration by who and what they are and how they allow me to see more of who I truly am.
They are my muse, my illumination, my genius.
They are the anti-evanescence of my life bringing weight and permanence to my every work.
Creating with words or pictures or fabric is not my vocation. But it is the journal of what my vocation does to and for me, how it lightens and enthuses and speaks beauty to my everyday.
Four of God's greatest gifts to me have been my children. In light of them, my own best dreams are but shadows not luminous enough.
*all the dresses on my girls were homemade projects. the tiered ombre dress, an upcycled design worn last year to another wedding. the peacock blue/green dress/skirt are original creations made from a silk sari hanging too long in my closet. the necklace, silk tied over an old dollar store creation bedazzled with an old chinese hair clip.
**also linking up with SortaCrunchy's Green Resource. To save money and reuse what I already had on hand, I came up with the ombre dyed dress and silk recycles. Just goes to show...green looks good gone formal, too! :)